Trapped in My Pass
Looking at My Future

Thus Sayest the Lord:
Gen:4:6-7
And the LORD said unto Cain, Why are thou wroth?
And why is thy countenance fallen? (Vs 7),
If thou doest well, shalt thou not be accepted?
And if thou doest not well, sin lieth at the door.
And unto thee shall be his desire, and thou shalt rule over him.

I started shaking my head and crying saying to God, Lord what have I done?
What please tell me I do not understand…
He said to me…look and you shall see….
He began to show me all of the sins in my past life.
At first I was confused because I know as well as you that
once God forgives us of our sins,
He throws them as far as the East is from the West.
He began to show me all of my past sins and how I was still trapped by them and
I was not aware nor did I know that I was still trapped and
this was the problem that was keeping me from going forward in HIM.

Psalm 103:12
As far as the East is from the West, so far hath he removed our
transgressions from us.
For thus Sayest the Lord of Host:
I have forgiven you of all your past sins
why have you not forgiven yourself also?

He opened up to me that I hated myself and
what I had not become to be called by the world and others in it successful,
as well as the hurt of failing in all that I had done in the past
as well as up into the present but
my past life was keeping me from His Future Vision that He had for me.
He showed me each room in my home
by which I have been living in since I was 5 years old
it is a 3 family home and I have lived on the (1st) floor with parents and
now on the (3rd) with my family.
He showed me every room where I had sinned and how I sinned.
Although I had received my salivation in the late 80's and knew His forgiveness,
I still had not forgiven myself for all the failures in my life and
all the mistakes that I had made in growing up.
He showed me how I was young and blinded by wanting to be grown up and
how I got myself pregnant at the early age of 12, and
the baby died but I still did not stop
even thou I had everything that I could want
as far as materialistic was concerned
I still lacked one true thing that I never received from my parents
and that one thing cause me to make many mistakes in my life
all the way up to now those things were still uncorrected and unresolved.
At the age of 13 I found myself pregnant again the baby died in the hospital and
I said to myself for the first time "I cant even have a baby right!
I was determined to have this baby not knowing why
just that I needed something to love and that it to would really love me back,
you see this was the one thing that I did not get from my parents
oh sure I got swimming pool, color TV, clothes,
and more things my own room, stereo everything that I wanted but
I never received a pat on the back or told "I love you"
just because I was who I was,
not because of what I had done or was doing.
So at the age of 14 I got pregnant again and
again the baby died and I said to myself,
I should kill myself cause I cant do anything right.
I am a high school drop out and I cant do anything but have dead babies
I cant even have something of my own to love and to love me back
how could God give me something to love when I had never knew how to,
love was never taught to me
so how would I be able to give something that I knew nothing of but I kept trying.
At the age of 17, again I found myself pregnant only with one difference
it was by a man that was 27, as I was only 17.
I was pregnant by him and he was a Muslim.
I did not want him I had what I wanted once more a baby.
Only he was not so forgiving.
In the nation of Islam once you are with a woman you are to marry her,
I was only 17 and did not know anything but
knew everything well you know what I am saying
he told me that if I did not marry him
he would take me before Brother Minister and they would get me
cause I was Muslim and it was a crime to have sex before we were married but
if he was going down he was taking me as well.
At this time in the Nation of Islam
they were finding heads severed in the parks facing the East
with no bodies attached to them and I did not want to be one of those people,
so I married at the age of 17.
My dad did not attend my wedding and was on a drunken stupor as usual.
I hated my husband nevertheless I married him.
We stayed together for 3 months and I left him
and had the baby by myself oh by the way he my son lives today.
The Lord started to show me all of my failures and how I had cover them over
and said its all right I have Jesus now…but
it was not all right it was and is blocking me from the Vision, HIS Vision.
He show me all of the sex that took place in each room of this house and
the drugs and alcohol that I had consumed even while I was pregnant
from the (1st) floor to the (3rd) floor
and in each room of this house and how it was still trapping me in my past
while I looked into my future.

For Thus Sayest the Lord of Host:
I have forgiven you, so why have you not forgive yourself?
Did I not say; "I have forgiven you?
But if you do not forgive,
neither will your Father which is in heaven forgive your trespasses.
You are holding pass sins against yourself
yes you have forgiven others for their sins against you but
you have not forgiven the one most important person…yourself!
Each house is going through its problems but
unbelief always produces misery did I not say to you
Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds,
because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance.
Perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not
lacking anything. (Vs 12); Blessed is the man who perseveres under trial,
because when he has stood the test he will receive the crown of life that GOD
has promised to those who love him. James 1:2-4,12 NIV

I am come to set you free!
John 8:31:32
So, Jesus said to those Jews who had believed in Him,
If you abide in my word
(hold fast to my teachings and live in accordance with them),
you are truly my disciples.
And you will know the Truth, and the truth will set you free.
Habakkuk 3:19
The Sovereign LORD is my strength he makes my feet like the feet of a deer,
he enables me to go on the heights.

DO NOT GIVE UP!

Its easy to quite, It takes faith to go through!
Remember daughter your thoughts become your words
suffering always proceeds liberation,
which leads to Victory!

I Peter 5:10
And the God of all grace, who called you to his eternal glory in Christ,
after you have suffered a little while,
will himself restore you and make you strong, firm and steadfast.

You have been taught that as long as you do not confess what you are feeling
you will not suffer any of what you think,
well I am here to tell you that
God says;
what soever a man thinketh so is he.
And what ever you are thinking in your soul if it is not of God's Plan and His Vision
it is sin and it will trap you in your past.

Are you saying to yourselves?

1. I not going to make it
2. This is too hard
3. I always fail
4. It has always been like this
5. Nothing ever changes
6. I mite as well give-up
7. I'm tired of crying
8. I pray, but it seems as if God doesn't hear me
9. He, (GOD) PROBABLY DOES NOT HEAR ME AND ANSWER MY PRAYERS BECAUSE He is disappointed in me.

Luke 6:35
NIV
The good man brings good things out of the good stored up in his heart, and
the evil man brings evil things out of the evil stored up in his heart. For
out of the overflow of his heart his mouth speaks.

For Thus Sayest the Lord of Host:
Think of all my children that I brought out of Egypt,
knowing that many would not make it because they were holding on to their past and
no matter how I show them that I was their present
they still live in their past and died in the wilderness never going over into Jordan.
The moment you began to bear fruit,
trials' came for that which you bore.
A gift is imparted and a fruit is grown so let it grow that ye may eat thereof.
My Joy is permanent, you can never loose it, and the rest is seasonal. (Jn 15:11),
Peace is the result of justification by faith, and having peace with God. (Rom 5:11),
Long-suffering is Love on Trail, Goodness is Holiness put into practice.

I said Lord forgive me you are right, I have not forgive myself
cause everytime I get into troubled waters
I say well, still to my self not speaking out loud;
I cant do anything right still, nothing ever comes out right for me
I keep trying but I cant seem to get it right.
So why even try,
but I know I cant go back for he who is in darkness awaits my return to kill me
to where I came from I know I can never return nor do I desire to.
I know too much about Jesus now,
so I am stuck, trapped in my pass
and prevented from going on into my future.
I know that I still have much work ahead of me but one thing is for sure,
this vale has been removed and now I am set free!

"WHAT'S HOLDING YOU BACK."

May Jesus bless you all and keep you in all that you do.

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Trapped in My Pass Looking at My Future"
C.A.B. Deliverance Ministries
Apostle/Prophetess Carol Ann Brooks

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